In my humble opinion

True happiness doesn't have a cause. When this is fully accepted and understood there will be advancement. It is a freeing concept. Nothing can MAKE you happy therefore NOTHING can make you unhappy. There is a beauty in that and a freedom and more than a small amount of peace. Letting go of the struggle to BE anything at all is the highest level of freedom and inner peace that we will ever attain. Realizing that we already ARE all that we are meant to be. . Peace.

Causeless Happiness

Hi-Ho, Hi-Ho, It's off to work I go....

So the day of re-emergence is here. I have gathered up all that I have learned in the past 10 days (and the past 20 years!) and head out to shine my light on my little section of the universe. Today I will remember that I have complete control over how I feel, how I perceive and how I experience. No one can remove my joy from me unless I allow that. My vibration will attract to me all that is likened to it. If I do not feel pleased with what I am experiencing I need only be still and listen. I am the answer to all of my questions. Love, joy, peace and flow are what I desire for this day. Breathe.
Thy will be done.
Namaste~~

"Jump and the
Universe will catch you. If you
are standing on the edge of the cliff of the unknown, simply remember
...that you are always supported by the Universe. This scary precipice is
just an illusion created by your mind. When you step off of it, you
will be carried by the wings of Grace. Truly trust yourself and you
will soar higher and farther than ever before! One, two, three...and JUMP And Soar....

So, This morning I was thinking....

When I woke up this morning I was thinking about judgement, release of attachment to results, and how this was almost the end of my vacation. I was thinking about judgement because I believe it is probably one of the most insidious and damaging concepts that we carry around with us. Practically everything is a judgement of some kind. Against and about ourselves or against and about everyone else. I have very bad experience with judgement. I would love to say I am non-judgemental but that would just be a bold faced lie. What I can say is that I am improving in the release of my judgements and am moving more towards acceptance. Years ago I was in AA. The best thing I learned in AA was the Serenity Prayer. Accept the things I cannot change. It has taken me many years, (not to understand, because intellectually I know what it means,) the difficult part is applying the principle to my life. I judge. Judging is not accepting. Change the things I can. Guess who I can change.....hmmm. Not too hard is it. Only Chris. Only myself. Only me. Guess what I can change.......hmmmm. My perception. That is about all. So I like to think that I am getting closer to the Wisdom to know the difference. But my God, what  a struggle I have usually created for myself. And knowing that I am returning to work on Monday is why I was thinking about these concepts when I woke up. For the last 10 days I have been blissfully happy. I stayed up late, woke up late, did meditation daily, interacted with like minded folks, ate when I was hungry and rested when I was tired. That ends Monday. At least the schedule part of it ends. What doesn't need to end is my blissful state. What doesn't need to end is my attitude. But I am afraid. Because I have some trouble in this area.  And that is why I am contemplating judgement and attachment and acceptance. I have difficulty maintaining my equilibrium around others. I worry way too much about what everyone is thinking of me. I worry about being judged because I am a judger. So perhaps if I release this I will no longer be concerned with others thoughts about me. They probably aren't even thinking about me anyway. That is my EGO. (Something else I learned a lot about in the AA Program. But that is for another day.) This is what I need to remember: At no time is anyone keeping me from being who I am, no one is keeping me from having what I want, NO ONE has that power---that is my delusion, my easy out, always has been. It is where 99%  of my suppressed anger stems from. It is never someone not understanding me or not agreeing with me that is the problem The problem is ME ALLOWING what I percieve as other peoples judgement of me to separate me from me. I am offended by their doubt because that doubt, that questioning makes me doubt and question myself. That doubt is really MY DOUBT, my insecurity. If I were connected and confident with who I AM, with MY TRUTH, MY SOURCE, MY CHRIS-NESS,  at no time would I feel pain or anger or fear when faced with the opinions of other people. Everything that causes me discomfort in my interactions with my peers is Always about me  Not about them, my perception of myself is skewed. And if someone IS unnecessarily unkind to me I need to remember that that is about THEM not about me. So, I feel that I am finally in a place where I can line up with my own ability to create and produce my own relief. Instead of being nervous and apprehensive about returning to work I will be excited and joyous in seeing my co-workers and meeting my day to day tasks with optimism and grace. I will remember this:
My answers are always with me, my solutions are within, I create my bliss, my serenity and my joy, I simply must be still and listen and accept. Blessings :)

Inherent in the Question, Lies the Solution

 One thing that has held me back, for so many years, from my becoming has been my exaggerated concern for w

My Mission Statement

It is My Mission to Allow, to Thrive, to Enjoy, to Play, to Honor MY Truth, to Embrace Beauty, to Extend Kindness and Joy. To continually Expand and to Always Choose Love . Blessings and Light to All.

So Today I Was Thinking......

Is it fair to keep our feelings hidden and to then be angry at others for not being able to know how we feel? We are so expert at hiding how we truly FEEL it should not be a surprise to us when those around us fail to interpret or recognize those feelings. If we want to be known we must allow ourselves to be knowable. Hmmm. Vulnerability....a very scary word to a Secretive Scorpio woman such as myself, one of the most difficult feelings to allow. Trust. Another tough one. The armor that we use to protect becomes the very thing that keeps us from the intimacy that we crave.
The jailer and the prisoner occupy the same space. hmmmm.